On Goals

I tend to let certain goals shrink in the shadows of other goals I have deemed more "challenging" or "significant." The fact is that they're all the same - they all hold the same weight - and my silly human self has given certain things more importance than others. And so when some of the "lesser" goals are achieved...I completely ignore them. This is just stupid.

And I have to remind myself of this on a pretty regular basis.

For instance, one of my "goals" this year was to play at least one or two shows a month. Well...it was going really well for a few months...but now, booking agents are not getting back to me. It is the most frustrating thing in the entire world. Especially because it's not really a "booking agent" - just various persons at decent NYC venues who have asked that artists wishing to be booked send an email. If you are only going to communicate via email...can you please COMMUNICATE? I don't really even care if you don't want to book me. Can you please tell me so? Thanks.

In the midst of all this frustration, I booked a show opening for Johanna Stahley at Baruch's Performing Arts Center. This is an awesome thing. Especially because just the other day I said "I think my next step is opening for other people...who have a larger audience than me and more experience...." HELLO. Thank you, Universe.

In my constant frustration of booking my own shows in the next few months, I completely overlooked the fact that this show I am playing with Johanna is a big deal for me. And I should be really grateful for the opportunity, focus on the Now, and not worry about anything else. Duh.

And there are even a couple of other things in the works that aren't confirmed yet, so I don't want to jinx myself. But basically, I am writing this post so that I can remember to be grateful for the giant picture...I hate when I get caught up in the how's and why's and just bask in some simple facts.

In even better news, it was warmer in Austin today. And the rain stopped. The sun was out a bit too. Thank God.