meltdowns and hanson brothers

i'm sitting behind a hanson brother right now. and i'm sure someone is reading this over my shoulder.

SXSW is awesome, but a meltdown was bound to find me eventually. I totally attracted it by having a bad attitude this morning...I didn't get much sleep, didn't wake up on time, FELL OFF MY BIKE (and really roughed up my arm)...after a semi-rough morning I just couldn't get it together. It's the end of the week, I have worked 50 plus hours, I am tired, and I am a tad lonely.

so there.

anyway, I'm over it. I got to sit in on Lou Reed's keynote speech, which was awesome. I ran into a Berklee prof who had no idea who I was but I introduced myself anyway. It took me back...and reminded me of what an awful, awful job I did networking at that school while I was there. I guess I was learning a lot of lessons at that time, and you know, you can only do so much. I'm not that person anymore, so it's okay, I should be able to forgive myself for that. It's just hard sometimes.

It's also super depressing when you realize that EVERYONE AND THEIR SISTER/MOTHER/BROTHER/DOG is an "aspiring singer-songwriter."

WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN ANYMORE?

aspiring to what? this whole trip has really made me sit and take a look at what I deem as "success" - for myself. Most people probably think fame and fortune. I do too. Haha, but that doesn't mean that if I DON'T reach that point I would consider myself a failure. I'm still trying to figure all of this out.

This entry is all over the place. Thanks for sticking around.

I wish I knew which Hanson brother that is.

Lauren

*UPDATE* holy crap is all THREE Hanson brothers. Now I'm surrounded my teenagers.