but I couldn't resist. I love this song.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
on never being "home"
Today I am in Indiana, but last weekend I was in Chicago, and before that I was in Indiana again for a bit, but I live in New York, and I'm heading to LA on Monday. And then coming back to Indy and then going back to New York. And then Indy, Miami, New York!
I think this is how my life is going to be from now on. And yeah, I like it.
I've never been much of a "home" person. I mean, I take that back. I was the kid who couldn't spend the night at a friend's house because I would get so sick. But...I've grown up since then, and well, it's just not like that anymore. Maybe it's because I moved around a lot while I was younger, or maybe it's because I've lived thousands of miles away from my parents for over four years now. But no matter where I am, I never really feel "home." I guess it's true that it's more about who you're with that really matters. And I do a good job of surrounding myself with positive and wonderful people, so I guess I'm always feeling pretty okay about *where* I am, no matter if I *live* there or not.
Did that paragraph make any sense at all? What I am trying to say, is...I love traveling. And I like not feeling terribly tied down to any one place. So I think this music thing is a good career choice for me. Even though I am usually away from one loved one or another while I do it. Luckily, these loved ones support me :)
It's been an interesting few weeks, and I am getting really pumped about getting some new recordings done. And an EP printed. Finally something to sell to people that I am really proud of an 100% behind. Sometimes I get really nervous and feel all sorts of anxiety about what will happen if I don't really like it as much as I want to, or what if it doesn't go the way it's supposed to, blah blah blah....but then I sit back and realize that IT DOESN'T MATTER. Worrying about it will do me NO GOOD what so ever. And thinking positively...like about how excited I am to just be with musicians and friends and beaches and sun and MUSIC and FUN....feels so much better than worrying about things I don't have control over. So silly.
xo
Lauren
I think this is how my life is going to be from now on. And yeah, I like it.
I've never been much of a "home" person. I mean, I take that back. I was the kid who couldn't spend the night at a friend's house because I would get so sick. But...I've grown up since then, and well, it's just not like that anymore. Maybe it's because I moved around a lot while I was younger, or maybe it's because I've lived thousands of miles away from my parents for over four years now. But no matter where I am, I never really feel "home." I guess it's true that it's more about who you're with that really matters. And I do a good job of surrounding myself with positive and wonderful people, so I guess I'm always feeling pretty okay about *where* I am, no matter if I *live* there or not.
Did that paragraph make any sense at all? What I am trying to say, is...I love traveling. And I like not feeling terribly tied down to any one place. So I think this music thing is a good career choice for me. Even though I am usually away from one loved one or another while I do it. Luckily, these loved ones support me :)
It's been an interesting few weeks, and I am getting really pumped about getting some new recordings done. And an EP printed. Finally something to sell to people that I am really proud of an 100% behind. Sometimes I get really nervous and feel all sorts of anxiety about what will happen if I don't really like it as much as I want to, or what if it doesn't go the way it's supposed to, blah blah blah....but then I sit back and realize that IT DOESN'T MATTER. Worrying about it will do me NO GOOD what so ever. And thinking positively...like about how excited I am to just be with musicians and friends and beaches and sun and MUSIC and FUN....feels so much better than worrying about things I don't have control over. So silly.
xo
Lauren
Sunday, October 14, 2007
can we please have dinner?
So, I'm sitting here in my parents' kitchen, trying to decide where this night is heading. Yes, I am officially home in Indiana for a few weeks before my LA expedition, and it's been 48 hours...and already I understand why I don't think I could really deal with moving back home, ever. Don't get me wrong, there is something about home that you can't find anywhere else, but I guess it's that way for a reason, and if you had it all the time...well then you'd never appreciate it...because I tell ya, I'm going nutzo.
Mom and Dad are empty nesters, so they officially don't really cook often anymore. It's 6pm and lil' ol' me is a starving marvin. I could make my own dinner, I guess, but instead, I am begging Dad to take his eyes off the Cowboys/Patriots game long enough to put some salmon on the grill.
It is perfectly fall here, and that is great, but fall is nostalgic for me, and I'm not sure why. Back to trying to figure out what to do tonight, it's the evenings that give me trouble. I have a hard time sitting around with the family watching a movie or a game, and I have a hard time sitting on the computer, aimlessly surfing the internet. I suppose I might have to cross over to the rock-star sleeping schedule and use the late hours for creative endeavors.
This week I've got to complete two new songs I'm working on, and arrange another two. By the end of it all, I should have around 12 finished songs to choose from for my EP, and I think that is great.
Went to my final BC show of her tour last night in adorable Broadripple. Jess was kind enough to join me, and I think I converted her. at least she said she completely understood my girl crush. Anyway, I tried to hard to leave feeling excited and inspired, rather than frustrated and depressed. It worked.
And there's that update.
hot chocolate and pumpkins,
Lauren
Mom and Dad are empty nesters, so they officially don't really cook often anymore. It's 6pm and lil' ol' me is a starving marvin. I could make my own dinner, I guess, but instead, I am begging Dad to take his eyes off the Cowboys/Patriots game long enough to put some salmon on the grill.
It is perfectly fall here, and that is great, but fall is nostalgic for me, and I'm not sure why. Back to trying to figure out what to do tonight, it's the evenings that give me trouble. I have a hard time sitting around with the family watching a movie or a game, and I have a hard time sitting on the computer, aimlessly surfing the internet. I suppose I might have to cross over to the rock-star sleeping schedule and use the late hours for creative endeavors.
This week I've got to complete two new songs I'm working on, and arrange another two. By the end of it all, I should have around 12 finished songs to choose from for my EP, and I think that is great.
Went to my final BC show of her tour last night in adorable Broadripple. Jess was kind enough to join me, and I think I converted her. at least she said she completely understood my girl crush. Anyway, I tried to hard to leave feeling excited and inspired, rather than frustrated and depressed. It worked.
And there's that update.
hot chocolate and pumpkins,
Lauren
Saturday, October 6, 2007
week one
followers, living in your hollow words
i have seen your nine to fives wash away your dreams
________________________
This week was my Brandi Carlile week, and I saw her twice at Irving Plaza...I was supposed to go to her show in Boston last night, but decided against it at the last minute. It's interesting...and somewhat embarrassing...how easily I become enthralled with people and what they do. It's borderline obsessive, and I'm not sure how to describe it outside of the typical fanatical situation. It's not that. Well, sometimes it is. But for the most part, I have found strong female performers to look up to since I can remember...and as embarrassing as this might be, I'll take you down memory lane...
The first "obsession" I can remember was the Lawrence Welk show. I was three-ish. I loved that show...the pretty dresses, big band music, and probably the bubbles at the very end. Anyone else? I watch it now and laugh at myself, but it is what it is. After that I can remember loving a performer on the Nickelodeon show "Roundhouse." It was like an SNL for kids, but they sang too, and there was one actress in particular that I was seriously drawn to. After that, it was Bette Midler, Barbara Streisand, and Bernadette Peters (I was a big fan of musicals in high school). And then it was Sarah Silverman (which kind of came out of left field). And then I went to a Brandi Carlile show that literally changed my life...which brought this fan thing to a whole new level. I have her freaking lyrics tattooed on my arm.
Soooooo, where am I going with this? I learned something throughout this last string of shows, and I'm going to go ahead and go so far as to compare this to an addiction. You tend to do something over and over again because it feels really great and you can't get enough of it. But then, eventually you start to not feel so good anymore after it's over. And that's kind of where I'm at. I think Brandi served her purpose in my life by giving me the wake-up call that I needed, but it's time for me to kind of move forward and stop getting caught up in comparisons and frustrations because I don't feel as if I'll ever be as great as her.
My brain understands that comparisons are stupid, and we're different people, and I really need to stop being so distracted so that I can really focus on exactly what I am trying to do...
Whew. This was a bit of a silly therapy session, but I feel better now.
My first week as my own boss was awesome, because I've basically been on vacation. I think I still averaged 30 hours or so of some sort of music-related exercise. So I'm happy :)
I wish I had red hair like Alison Sudol,
Lauren
i have seen your nine to fives wash away your dreams
________________________
This week was my Brandi Carlile week, and I saw her twice at Irving Plaza...I was supposed to go to her show in Boston last night, but decided against it at the last minute. It's interesting...and somewhat embarrassing...how easily I become enthralled with people and what they do. It's borderline obsessive, and I'm not sure how to describe it outside of the typical fanatical situation. It's not that. Well, sometimes it is. But for the most part, I have found strong female performers to look up to since I can remember...and as embarrassing as this might be, I'll take you down memory lane...
The first "obsession" I can remember was the Lawrence Welk show. I was three-ish. I loved that show...the pretty dresses, big band music, and probably the bubbles at the very end. Anyone else? I watch it now and laugh at myself, but it is what it is. After that I can remember loving a performer on the Nickelodeon show "Roundhouse." It was like an SNL for kids, but they sang too, and there was one actress in particular that I was seriously drawn to. After that, it was Bette Midler, Barbara Streisand, and Bernadette Peters (I was a big fan of musicals in high school). And then it was Sarah Silverman (which kind of came out of left field). And then I went to a Brandi Carlile show that literally changed my life...which brought this fan thing to a whole new level. I have her freaking lyrics tattooed on my arm.
Soooooo, where am I going with this? I learned something throughout this last string of shows, and I'm going to go ahead and go so far as to compare this to an addiction. You tend to do something over and over again because it feels really great and you can't get enough of it. But then, eventually you start to not feel so good anymore after it's over. And that's kind of where I'm at. I think Brandi served her purpose in my life by giving me the wake-up call that I needed, but it's time for me to kind of move forward and stop getting caught up in comparisons and frustrations because I don't feel as if I'll ever be as great as her.
My brain understands that comparisons are stupid, and we're different people, and I really need to stop being so distracted so that I can really focus on exactly what I am trying to do...
Whew. This was a bit of a silly therapy session, but I feel better now.
My first week as my own boss was awesome, because I've basically been on vacation. I think I still averaged 30 hours or so of some sort of music-related exercise. So I'm happy :)
I wish I had red hair like Alison Sudol,
Lauren
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