I wish I loved the Smashing Pumpkins more than I do. Maybe I don't. I don't know. I just got that song stuck in my head.
So, story of the day (I apologize ahead of time for corniness): I was complaining to the only other female I work with about men and how much they basically suck all the time. I say this because I work with them and live with them, and occasionally have some weaker moments in which I want to be covered in estrogen and only estrogen, because only estrogen could possibly understand. ANYWAY. She told me that her boyfriend made a promise to a friend of his years ago, as he was dying from a brain tumor. Yes, I just got tragic on you. Basically, on his death bed, he said "Promise me you'll never have a bad day." And so he did. Promise.
I'll let that sink in a sec.
How can I possibly even think what I'm going through is remotely comparable to something like THAT? Made me shape up real fast. I've got a lot to be excited about, and if I'm not just excited about it all the time, it's going to take that much longer to come to fruition! Time is flying by fast...
Farewell, July (Joo-ly). It was fun.
So I've done a few gutsy things (in terms of my music) within the last 24 hours, and although I have no clue what the result will be, if there WILL be a result, I've got to pat myself on the back. Because no one else will, kids. I've learned that I need to be my biggest fan. And I'm okay with that. Because at the end of the day, what difference is it going to make if your mom buys all your albums? She's just putting money back in her pocket again! Anyway. If any of these gutsy things pan out, I'll let you know. Otherwise, I'd embarrass myself, and I don't feel like doing that.
so...on that note!
to quote that awesome girl Sia:
pray for linds.
love on a lobster,
Lauren
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
Yes, it's Monday again
My inspiration for today:
In other news, the media section of my site is complete, so NOW it's really done. Now it's up to me to do enough so that I can continuously update it. Haha. Right.
I think I'm gonna take it easy tonight. Maybe I'll get my keyboard out.
xo
Lauren
In other news, the media section of my site is complete, so NOW it's really done. Now it's up to me to do enough so that I can continuously update it. Haha. Right.
I think I'm gonna take it easy tonight. Maybe I'll get my keyboard out.
xo
Lauren
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Sunday nights
are the best and worst times of the entire week. They're peaceful and quiet, and the final hours before it's time to return to my daily grind. I have been writing/recording since 10 am, and it's now 6:30, so I need to take a break. There's only so much progress one can make before patterns simply repeat.
I was treated to an empty apartment this weekend -- roomies were away for a bachelor party, and so I decided it was time to get some musical things done. Sound travels so well in this apartment of mine, so it's nearly impossible to do any type of recording when there are other people present.
Some accomplishments this weekend: learned how to update my own website...still waiting on the final touches to be completed, but we're almost there. I also decided to submit myself for a festival of sorts, and the odds of getting chosen are slim to none, HOWEVER, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain, so even if it means that there's a chance they'll recognize my name NEXT year when I submit again, that's good enough for me. I'm putting the finishing touches on the CD I'm sending them tonight.
Because my ride to L.A. is gone, I have some major decisions to make. Do I take a month sabbatical to rehearse BEFORE I record (to prep for the studio), or do I take it afterwards (to prepare for playing out), and if I take it before, how is this going to interfere with my job/lack of job/holiday schedule? There's a lot of questions to answer...it's a loaded situation. I need to sit and really figure this all out.
I'm not all business all the time...also took a four hour bike ride around Manhattan, complete with some drinks on the pier, ate some great pizza and ice cream (haha, can't get much better than that), and watched a few movies. I finally saw "Music and Lyrics" and I was pretty disappointed by how much better the movie could have been, but enjoyed it otherwise. Also watched "Prairie Home Companion" and enjoyed it, as well. I'm still waiting to get my Harry Potter, and there's another book I want to read...can't remember the title right now.
Anyway, I hope your weekend was as great as mine. I'm looking forward to the next one...
Love Lauren
I was treated to an empty apartment this weekend -- roomies were away for a bachelor party, and so I decided it was time to get some musical things done. Sound travels so well in this apartment of mine, so it's nearly impossible to do any type of recording when there are other people present.
Some accomplishments this weekend: learned how to update my own website...still waiting on the final touches to be completed, but we're almost there. I also decided to submit myself for a festival of sorts, and the odds of getting chosen are slim to none, HOWEVER, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain, so even if it means that there's a chance they'll recognize my name NEXT year when I submit again, that's good enough for me. I'm putting the finishing touches on the CD I'm sending them tonight.
Because my ride to L.A. is gone, I have some major decisions to make. Do I take a month sabbatical to rehearse BEFORE I record (to prep for the studio), or do I take it afterwards (to prepare for playing out), and if I take it before, how is this going to interfere with my job/lack of job/holiday schedule? There's a lot of questions to answer...it's a loaded situation. I need to sit and really figure this all out.
I'm not all business all the time...also took a four hour bike ride around Manhattan, complete with some drinks on the pier, ate some great pizza and ice cream (haha, can't get much better than that), and watched a few movies. I finally saw "Music and Lyrics" and I was pretty disappointed by how much better the movie could have been, but enjoyed it otherwise. Also watched "Prairie Home Companion" and enjoyed it, as well. I'm still waiting to get my Harry Potter, and there's another book I want to read...can't remember the title right now.
Anyway, I hope your weekend was as great as mine. I'm looking forward to the next one...
Love Lauren
Thursday, July 26, 2007
dreaming all my doubts away
That's what I feel like doing some times. Today was one of those days where I just did NOT want to get out of bed. And when I got out of bed, all I wanted to do for the next five hours or so was crawl back under my covers and stay there forever.
Focusing on doing ONE thing every day to keep this train going is really necessary for me at this stage in the game. Today I looked into plane tickets for LA in October, spent some time on Myspace, and worked some more on the song I wrote yesterday. I'm almost done with it. It's really funny to me how some songs come in a matter of minutes, literally, and others take months. This one's probably going on three weeks or so, just because I keep leaving and coming back to it.
I also try to pay attention to when the Universe kind of communicates with me. Usually I can find some sort of coincidence that I can choose to see as encouragement. Today's example: I got a magazine from Disc Makers. I don't remember signing up for it, and I might end up needing it, depending how I decide to print my upcoming EP. So I'll take it!
Alright kids. I'm working on getting more sleep. Time to try to hit the sack.
Sweet dreams -
Lauren
Focusing on doing ONE thing every day to keep this train going is really necessary for me at this stage in the game. Today I looked into plane tickets for LA in October, spent some time on Myspace, and worked some more on the song I wrote yesterday. I'm almost done with it. It's really funny to me how some songs come in a matter of minutes, literally, and others take months. This one's probably going on three weeks or so, just because I keep leaving and coming back to it.
I also try to pay attention to when the Universe kind of communicates with me. Usually I can find some sort of coincidence that I can choose to see as encouragement. Today's example: I got a magazine from Disc Makers. I don't remember signing up for it, and I might end up needing it, depending how I decide to print my upcoming EP. So I'll take it!
Alright kids. I'm working on getting more sleep. Time to try to hit the sack.
Sweet dreams -
Lauren
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Wednesday is not over yet
I guess I didn't really intend for this to be a daily thing, but it's really helping me in terms of staying focused. Today is about being grateful. It is amazing what a positive outlook can do to your life and what you can accomplish. I am stealing the following from Kestrin Pantera's website (www.kestrin.com) because she just expressed it all so well.
The Kestrin Pantera K-Panifesto: The Universe Always Conspires To Help You
* We are victims of good.
* Don't worry! Follow the gut. Anything is possible.
* Be an open book. Or the mystery man.
* Establish, build, and maintain relationships with wise-soul-geniuses: Admire, Help, and Inspire.
* Rock and work hard, joyfully challenging creativity. Laugh as much as possible.
* Make others feel good about themselves during and after interactions - with sincerity. Leave lasting positive impressions. Be Compassionate.
* Utilize all resources effectively, hilariously, and respectfully. Think Bigger.
* Stay focused on self-improvement. Have "the patience".
* Take criticism from those respected, admired, and trusted: maximize the positives.
* LISTEN. Ask Questions. Be present and honest with every person encountered.
* Avoid Negative Paranoid's (aka "Toolboxes") who excessively worry, complain, and criticize. They happen. Don't let 'em get to you. (NEVER BE ONE).
* Participate in creating successful joyous brilliant projects that make the world a better place.
* Never let someone else's freakout destroy your peace of mind.
* Take time out to be alone and quiet every day. "Rockstars wear pajamas too."
* Only two things are certain in this world: Everything changes. You get what you give.
* Speak in your stupidest voice/accent daily. It's funner.
Surrender the critical voice ceaselessly picking away at joy. Surrender the grip of power demanding too much of nothing. Let go of fear and control.
Embrace beauty. Celebrate freedom, love, creativity and the goodness we all have.
-Anonymous
Also, I finished a new song today. I am definitely grateful for that.
The Kestrin Pantera K-Panifesto: The Universe Always Conspires To Help You
* We are victims of good.
* Don't worry! Follow the gut. Anything is possible.
* Be an open book. Or the mystery man.
* Establish, build, and maintain relationships with wise-soul-geniuses: Admire, Help, and Inspire.
* Rock and work hard, joyfully challenging creativity. Laugh as much as possible.
* Make others feel good about themselves during and after interactions - with sincerity. Leave lasting positive impressions. Be Compassionate.
* Utilize all resources effectively, hilariously, and respectfully. Think Bigger.
* Stay focused on self-improvement. Have "the patience".
* Take criticism from those respected, admired, and trusted: maximize the positives.
* LISTEN. Ask Questions. Be present and honest with every person encountered.
* Avoid Negative Paranoid's (aka "Toolboxes") who excessively worry, complain, and criticize. They happen. Don't let 'em get to you. (NEVER BE ONE).
* Participate in creating successful joyous brilliant projects that make the world a better place.
* Never let someone else's freakout destroy your peace of mind.
* Take time out to be alone and quiet every day. "Rockstars wear pajamas too."
* Only two things are certain in this world: Everything changes. You get what you give.
* Speak in your stupidest voice/accent daily. It's funner.
Surrender the critical voice ceaselessly picking away at joy. Surrender the grip of power demanding too much of nothing. Let go of fear and control.
Embrace beauty. Celebrate freedom, love, creativity and the goodness we all have.
-Anonymous
Also, I finished a new song today. I am definitely grateful for that.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Tuesday's
Feat of the day: updated my Sonicbids EPK! haha, I don't know that it even makes a difference, but hey, I've done SOMETHING. Heading home now to do some writing, I think...maybe after I pick up a new pair of chuck taylors I've been eyeing...
Monday, July 23, 2007
Rainy Days and Mondays...
can't let them get me down. We are in the midst of a torrential downpour in NYC, and I have never been so grateful for my quite un-stylish pair of rain boots.
I suppose this blog is meant to update the musical aspect of my life, so that is what I will do for you now...
On April 26th of this year, I finally figured out what I wanted to do with my life. And so I'm counting down the days until October 1, which is when I will kiss my 50-hour work week goodbye to pursue this music thing of mine full time. Since April I've accomplished a lot, I think - I've recorded some new music, albeit amateurly, I had my website made the way I've always wanted it, I'm working my way toward the 1000 friend mark on myspace (I don't really know what difference it makes at the end of the day, but I'm trying to will that break before October, along with the 10,000 play barrier)...I've played mulitple open mics, created a YouTube channel, and have ten new songs. I guess you could say that finally figuring it all out started a fire under my ass - in part because I've got a long journey ahead of me, and also because I'm scared shitless.
I've got lists and lists of other goals to accomplish ASAP, but I think for now I am going to concentrate on writing and rehearsing as much material as possible before I head out to LA to record in October. At this point I'm afraid I won't be ready, and I simply cannot let that happen.
Hopefully these things won't be so long and boring in the future.
Feat of the day: I created my own banner! It's so not as cool as they could be, but it's what you get. It's at the top of this blog, and it's at the bottom of this post :)
Love Lauren
I suppose this blog is meant to update the musical aspect of my life, so that is what I will do for you now...
On April 26th of this year, I finally figured out what I wanted to do with my life. And so I'm counting down the days until October 1, which is when I will kiss my 50-hour work week goodbye to pursue this music thing of mine full time. Since April I've accomplished a lot, I think - I've recorded some new music, albeit amateurly, I had my website made the way I've always wanted it, I'm working my way toward the 1000 friend mark on myspace (I don't really know what difference it makes at the end of the day, but I'm trying to will that break before October, along with the 10,000 play barrier)...I've played mulitple open mics, created a YouTube channel, and have ten new songs. I guess you could say that finally figuring it all out started a fire under my ass - in part because I've got a long journey ahead of me, and also because I'm scared shitless.
I've got lists and lists of other goals to accomplish ASAP, but I think for now I am going to concentrate on writing and rehearsing as much material as possible before I head out to LA to record in October. At this point I'm afraid I won't be ready, and I simply cannot let that happen.
Hopefully these things won't be so long and boring in the future.
Feat of the day: I created my own banner! It's so not as cool as they could be, but it's what you get. It's at the top of this blog, and it's at the bottom of this post :)
Love Lauren
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