on never being "home"

Today I am in Indiana, but last weekend I was in Chicago, and before that I was in Indiana again for a bit, but I live in New York, and I'm heading to LA on Monday. And then coming back to Indy and then going back to New York. And then Indy, Miami, New York!

I think this is how my life is going to be from now on. And yeah, I like it.

I've never been much of a "home" person. I mean, I take that back. I was the kid who couldn't spend the night at a friend's house because I would get so sick. But...I've grown up since then, and well, it's just not like that anymore. Maybe it's because I moved around a lot while I was younger, or maybe it's because I've lived thousands of miles away from my parents for over four years now. But no matter where I am, I never really feel "home." I guess it's true that it's more about who you're with that really matters. And I do a good job of surrounding myself with positive and wonderful people, so I guess I'm always feeling pretty okay about *where* I am, no matter if I *live* there or not.

Did that paragraph make any sense at all? What I am trying to say, is...I love traveling. And I like not feeling terribly tied down to any one place. So I think this music thing is a good career choice for me. Even though I am usually away from one loved one or another while I do it. Luckily, these loved ones support me :)

It's been an interesting few weeks, and I am getting really pumped about getting some new recordings done. And an EP printed. Finally something to sell to people that I am really proud of an 100% behind. Sometimes I get really nervous and feel all sorts of anxiety about what will happen if I don't really like it as much as I want to, or what if it doesn't go the way it's supposed to, blah blah blah....but then I sit back and realize that IT DOESN'T MATTER. Worrying about it will do me NO GOOD what so ever. And thinking positively...like about how excited I am to just be with musicians and friends and beaches and sun and MUSIC and FUN....feels so much better than worrying about things I don't have control over. So silly.

xo

Lauren