when you're holding a hot cup of coffee

and you feel like you're going to sneeze...

that's how I feel.

Saturday night and I'm watching a movie in my chilly bedroom, hiding from the humidity and heat outside. Three new songs this weekend, I hope. It kind of alarms me how the completiong of some songs has felt more like an exercise than simple inspiration, but at the same time, I can't just sit around and wait for inspiration to hit. I've got too much going on in my brain to really even allow that to happen organically...I can't wait until that changes.

At the same time, however, I am terrified of all the "free" time I have coming at me. In about five weeks, things will change, and that is so crazy to me. Every once in a while I find myself thinking/panicking: "holy crap, what am I going to do when I need to get a real job again???" and then I have to remind myself that WAIT. I won't have to. That is the whole point of this.

and to quote tegan and sara

if you've got it to give, you've got to give it all.

Love Lauren

p.s. MAYBE a new vblog tomorrow. If I can get my act together.